Will someone please remind me, next time I get all bleeding-heart philanthropic and decide that I need to go work for the church in some far-off land for practically no money because I think it might in the grand scheme of things actually help people in some way or another, that what I really need more than anything in the world is a job that pays me enough and gives me enough time off that I can go home for Christmas? Loneliness is for crap, people. It gets inside you like a worm in an apple and let's be honest here, who finds a worm inside an apple and says, oh great, protein?
Monday, December 13, 2004
I can't sleep
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Oh Jess. I just want to hug you and make it all better. Maybe you can move back to the midwest and then you won't be lonely anymore. OK? --AE
I just have to tell you, that is the best analogy or metaphor or whatever, I have heard in a long time. It really hits home with me! I'm so sorry you feel this lonely and I am really happy you get to see your family in January. A few more weeks, right?
Thanks, guys. :-) You know, a little pity (from people other than myself) goes a long way! Yep, 44 more days until I fly home.
Thanks hon, but I really wasn't trying to be noble or self-sacrificing when I took this job... I really thought it was the right job for me. (And the job maybe is, just not the city.) I mean, I speak German well and am in a position to interpret the culture to American visitors, I am a good writer (well, at least up to the point where I have proven otherwise on this blog!), and the other things they were looking for in an employee were things that I love to do. This job was supposed to be a fairly safe choice among several options I had at the time. Not the absolute safest, which would have been to work in my sort-of home parish as the Coordinator of Neighborhood Ministries (and oh, let me tell you how often I regret not taking that job!!)... but safe nonetheless. What a shock to me to find out that this was much more of a risk than I had bargained for. And then the break-up story to boot. Ugh.
And I think that in choosing a career in the church or non-profit sector, I have sort of removed the chances of having a really cushy high-paying career, but I don't think that is out of a sense of nobility either, just call. This is what I love, this is what I'm good at, this is what needs to be done. Although I must say, someday I would like to earn something called a "salary" rather than a "monthly stipend". Just sounds more grown up. :-)
Hi, V and G! Thanks for playing me a song, G.. I couldn't hear very well. Was it "O Holy Night" or "Smokin' in the Boys' Room"?
So does this mean you have a blog?? If so, I want to see!!
Thank you for the cookies... I hope they turn out better than our baklava! ;-)Have a marvelous Weihnachten in Mittelfranken!
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