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I was really tired yesterday. But that's no excuse.

I have failed at NaBloPoMo. I didn't post yesterday. I thought about it a few times, but couldn't muster up the energy to hoist my laptop to my lap and actually put words on a screen. So, no post. As penance, I will post twice today. And then I shall stop feeling guilty, because hell, I didn't even sign up for this thing anyway, and I learned to fail graciously a few years ago.

So, man, am I tired. I expected this to happen - the doctor even warned me - but wow, sleepiness is a heavy taskmaster. I almost fell asleep at the wheel yesterday, so I rolled down the window and froze my fingers off for the last few minutes of the drive.

I went to the doctor on Monday, who decided that I should /could probably stop taking my meds at this point. I was pretty happy to hear this, because the side effects are starting to get intensely annoying. I've been really low-energy and constantly hungry for the past 6 months or so. This has resulted in my body changing shape in a way that displeases me greatly and has caused me to dissect my wardrobe into the "Fits, but just barely" and the "Doesn't fit anymore. Boo." categories. Yuck.

When I showed the doctor my medication, she looked at it, looked at me, looked at it again, and then looked back to me.
"They prescribed you this in Germany, hmm?"
"Yep. The doctor was really worried about my insomnia."
"You've never had an eating disorder, have you?"
"Huh? Nope. I have never had problems eating. Why?"
"Well, I usually only prescribe this to anorexics - you know, to slow them down a little and cause intense hunger so they will start eating again."
"Huh." So that explains the laziness and the constant hunger, I guess.

Another added bonus to the whole tapering business is that this drug, when prescribed at very small doses, has strong sedative properties. So while I am re-training my brain to take over for the medicine, I get to be realllly sleepy for a while. Aight. Good thing I don't have too many long drives coming up.